Tag: grief
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To My Dearest Friend,
At the time of this post, we are closing in on the one year ”anniversary” of Jakes passing. A lot of emotions have been circulating as this date approaches. As I have said many times over to put it into words as best I can. The pain feels like it just happened yesterday. The missing…
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Little Things and Time Traveling
The holidays and birthdays are hard that one was always going to be blatantly obvious. I think those days are hard particularly when you are around friends and family. There is a spotlight on you and who is missing at that time. The empty chair, the plate untouched, presents never purchased, candles still lit, the…
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Im Not Mad At You
It’s been a while since I have posted anything or written anything. I have found lately that I am having trouble putting thoughts to paper. It has been a little over 7 months since Jake left us. Even after 7 months it still doen’t seem real. My brain knows that this is real and he…
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Still
Its been a little over 6 months since we said goodbye and the majority of the time I am still in shock. I find myself in an endless loop of emotions that circulate or rotate like a wheel day in and day out. I didn’t know that you could cycle through so many different emotions…
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If You Can Hold The Stars
”Stars by Skillet” ”If You can hold the stars in placeYou can hold my heart the sameWhenever I fall awayWhenever I start to breakSo here I am, lifting up my heart If You can calm the raging seaYou can calm the storm in meYou’re never too far awayYou never show up too lateSo here I…
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Dear Jake
Its been 165 days or 23 weeks & 4 days or 5 months and 12 days since you left us and entered your forever home. Time stopped that day at 11:19 am and yet time kept going. There hasnt been a moment that has gone by that I havent thought about you. A memory hasnt…
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A Shoulder to Cry On..
My relationship with God has always been a rocky one. If I were to use an analogy to describe it I would say its been like a roller coaster. There has been some high points and some very low points. If I am honest with myself and with you I would say that I became…
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A New World
Everything looks the same to those around you. The world hasn’t changed much, life itself seems like it has resumed normalcies. But to the ones who lost something so sacred the world has inevitably changed forever. It feels like you have been transported to an alternate universe. A post apocalyptic world by looking at appearances.…
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A Grieving Father
I had a conversation with someone recently about my grief. They told me that Men and women grieve differently. I knew this, men and women do a lot of things differently. What they said next kind of took me by surprise. ‘’You grieve as a protector because you’re a father. Your jobs is to provide…
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Grief Feels Like..
Grief masks itself in many different emotions until the disguise comes off and you realize its grief. Grief looks like physical symptoms that can cause one to feel sick or cause some type of physical pain. For about a week or so after Jacob passed I noticed that I was having these excruciating pains in…
Reflections From The Wreckage 