Tag: child-loss
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At least Addi has Lincoln
I’ve been thinking about that statement a lot. There’s a lot of things Jake said or I said that run through my mind nearly 24/7. It’s like sitting in a movie theatre and being unable to leave because the reel just keeps going. All the memories, all the talks, all the stuff that just plays…
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That Part Too
There is a lot about grief that is so incredibly painful. As we near the two year anniversary of Jake leaving us there has been a lot that’s on mind. A lot to process or try to anyways. One of the common themes you hear in grief is ”It’s ironic that the one person you…
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I Have to Do This To Get Better
There’s a lot that I feel like I need to get out in terms of writing but everytime I sit down to write about it I instantly lose the motivation/energy to do so. Typically how this blog works is I see or think of something that inspires me and I take that idea further by…
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Little Things and Time Traveling
The holidays and birthdays are hard that one was always going to be blatantly obvious. I think those days are hard particularly when you are around friends and family. There is a spotlight on you and who is missing at that time. The empty chair, the plate untouched, presents never purchased, candles still lit, the…
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Im Not Mad At You
It’s been a while since I have posted anything or written anything. I have found lately that I am having trouble putting thoughts to paper. It has been a little over 7 months since Jake left us. Even after 7 months it still doen’t seem real. My brain knows that this is real and he…
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Still
Its been a little over 6 months since we said goodbye and the majority of the time I am still in shock. I find myself in an endless loop of emotions that circulate or rotate like a wheel day in and day out. I didn’t know that you could cycle through so many different emotions…
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If You Can Hold The Stars
”Stars by Skillet” ”If You can hold the stars in placeYou can hold my heart the sameWhenever I fall awayWhenever I start to breakSo here I am, lifting up my heart If You can calm the raging seaYou can calm the storm in meYou’re never too far awayYou never show up too lateSo here I…
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A Shoulder to Cry On..
My relationship with God has always been a rocky one. If I were to use an analogy to describe it I would say its been like a roller coaster. There has been some high points and some very low points. If I am honest with myself and with you I would say that I became…
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A New World
Everything looks the same to those around you. The world hasn’t changed much, life itself seems like it has resumed normalcies. But to the ones who lost something so sacred the world has inevitably changed forever. It feels like you have been transported to an alternate universe. A post apocalyptic world by looking at appearances.…
Reflections From The Wreckage 