Tag: loss
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At least Addi has Lincoln
I’ve been thinking about that statement a lot. There’s a lot of things Jake said or I said that run through my mind nearly 24/7. It’s like sitting in a movie theatre and being unable to leave because the reel just keeps going. All the memories, all the talks, all the stuff that just plays…
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That Part Too
There is a lot about grief that is so incredibly painful. As we near the two year anniversary of Jake leaving us there has been a lot that’s on mind. A lot to process or try to anyways. One of the common themes you hear in grief is ”It’s ironic that the one person you…
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No one told me grief felt so like fear
I came across the quote above recently and wanted to expand upon it because I have a lot of thoughts on this topic. Grief brings about a lot of different emotions on a daily basis. I often attribute this to spinning a wheel or the chamber on a revolver. One emotion you have at this…
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Lessons learned in Grief
I recently read that grief can teach you many things if you allow it to. Its been 559 days since Jake left and so much has changed while some things have remained the same. I think the first thing I have learned is that grief is sneaky and never ending. The way in which you…
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What is This Place?
Hello reader, welcome to the blog where I talk about grief. That awful word that no one wants to hear and absolutely don’t want to talk about. An event that is universally felt but universally misunderstood. I don’t claim to have all the answers im just the guy in the trenches speaking out and trying…
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Having conversations with the gone, this is grief
Before losing Jake, before there was ever any hint of any kind of sickness or anything wrong I would have never thought it was possible. Most days I still can’t wrap my head around this new relationship I have to try and create with him. I’ve never been one to believe in ”signs” from those…
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Bear witness
I think its beautiful and inspiring when someone is able to turn their pain into purpose. I think being honest about where we are at in the pain and healing is just as beautiful. I think in western culture especially there is so much pressure on people in grief to not only heal quickly but…
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To My Dearest Friend,
At the time of this post, we are closing in on the one year ”anniversary” of Jakes passing. A lot of emotions have been circulating as this date approaches. As I have said many times over to put it into words as best I can. The pain feels like it just happened yesterday. The missing…
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If You Can Hold The Stars
”Stars by Skillet” ”If You can hold the stars in placeYou can hold my heart the sameWhenever I fall awayWhenever I start to breakSo here I am, lifting up my heart If You can calm the raging seaYou can calm the storm in meYou’re never too far awayYou never show up too lateSo here I…
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A Grieving Father
I had a conversation with someone recently about my grief. They told me that Men and women grieve differently. I knew this, men and women do a lot of things differently. What they said next kind of took me by surprise. ‘’You grieve as a protector because you’re a father. Your jobs is to provide…
Reflections From The Wreckage 