Tag: life
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That Part Too
There is a lot about grief that is so incredibly painful. As we near the two year anniversary of Jake leaving us there has been a lot that’s on mind. A lot to process or try to anyways. One of the common themes you hear in grief is ”It’s ironic that the one person you…
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No one told me grief felt so like fear
I came across the quote above recently and wanted to expand upon it because I have a lot of thoughts on this topic. Grief brings about a lot of different emotions on a daily basis. I often attribute this to spinning a wheel or the chamber on a revolver. One emotion you have at this…
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What is This Place?
Hello reader, welcome to the blog where I talk about grief. That awful word that no one wants to hear and absolutely don’t want to talk about. An event that is universally felt but universally misunderstood. I don’t claim to have all the answers im just the guy in the trenches speaking out and trying…
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Having conversations with the gone, this is grief
Before losing Jake, before there was ever any hint of any kind of sickness or anything wrong I would have never thought it was possible. Most days I still can’t wrap my head around this new relationship I have to try and create with him. I’ve never been one to believe in ”signs” from those…
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Bear witness
I think its beautiful and inspiring when someone is able to turn their pain into purpose. I think being honest about where we are at in the pain and healing is just as beautiful. I think in western culture especially there is so much pressure on people in grief to not only heal quickly but…
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Happy Birthday Jake
This is the second birthday we have had to endure/celebrate without you and the fact of the matter is it still has not gotten easier. I have said as have others that our worst day was your best day. You deserve everything that heaven has to offer and then some. They are so lucky to…
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Little Things and Time Traveling
The holidays and birthdays are hard that one was always going to be blatantly obvious. I think those days are hard particularly when you are around friends and family. There is a spotlight on you and who is missing at that time. The empty chair, the plate untouched, presents never purchased, candles still lit, the…
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Still
Its been a little over 6 months since we said goodbye and the majority of the time I am still in shock. I find myself in an endless loop of emotions that circulate or rotate like a wheel day in and day out. I didn’t know that you could cycle through so many different emotions…
Reflections From The Wreckage 