Tag: grief
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Love Me or Hate Me I’m Not Going Anywhere
You’ve heard of the statement ”when an immovable object meets an unstoppable force”? That’s how I would describe this thing called grief and the creator of the universe who we call God. What I’m learning in my grief over Jake is no matter how much work I put in there is always more to do.…
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At least Addi has Lincoln
I’ve been thinking about that statement a lot. There’s a lot of things Jake said or I said that run through my mind nearly 24/7. It’s like sitting in a movie theatre and being unable to leave because the reel just keeps going. All the memories, all the talks, all the stuff that just plays…
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That Part Too
There is a lot about grief that is so incredibly painful. As we near the two year anniversary of Jake leaving us there has been a lot that’s on mind. A lot to process or try to anyways. One of the common themes you hear in grief is ”It’s ironic that the one person you…
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No one told me grief felt so like fear
I came across the quote above recently and wanted to expand upon it because I have a lot of thoughts on this topic. Grief brings about a lot of different emotions on a daily basis. I often attribute this to spinning a wheel or the chamber on a revolver. One emotion you have at this…
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Lessons learned in Grief
I recently read that grief can teach you many things if you allow it to. Its been 559 days since Jake left and so much has changed while some things have remained the same. I think the first thing I have learned is that grief is sneaky and never ending. The way in which you…
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What is This Place?
Hello reader, welcome to the blog where I talk about grief. That awful word that no one wants to hear and absolutely don’t want to talk about. An event that is universally felt but universally misunderstood. I don’t claim to have all the answers im just the guy in the trenches speaking out and trying…
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Having conversations with the gone, this is grief
Before losing Jake, before there was ever any hint of any kind of sickness or anything wrong I would have never thought it was possible. Most days I still can’t wrap my head around this new relationship I have to try and create with him. I’ve never been one to believe in ”signs” from those…
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Bear witness
I think its beautiful and inspiring when someone is able to turn their pain into purpose. I think being honest about where we are at in the pain and healing is just as beautiful. I think in western culture especially there is so much pressure on people in grief to not only heal quickly but…
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Happy Birthday Jake
This is the second birthday we have had to endure/celebrate without you and the fact of the matter is it still has not gotten easier. I have said as have others that our worst day was your best day. You deserve everything that heaven has to offer and then some. They are so lucky to…
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I Have to Do This To Get Better
There’s a lot that I feel like I need to get out in terms of writing but everytime I sit down to write about it I instantly lose the motivation/energy to do so. Typically how this blog works is I see or think of something that inspires me and I take that idea further by…
Reflections From The Wreckage 