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The Veil Gets Thinner
I enjoy things that move me that cause me to reflect on my own life, deep conversations, stories that tell the why behind someone or something. I have always enjoyed films and television shows. I think if an actor or actress is worth their salt their performance brings the viewer into seeing themselves in that…
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Bear witness
I think its beautiful and inspiring when someone is able to turn their pain into purpose. I think being honest about where we are at in the pain and healing is just as beautiful. I think in western culture especially there is so much pressure on people in grief to not only heal quickly but…
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Happy Birthday Jake
This is the second birthday we have had to endure/celebrate without you and the fact of the matter is it still has not gotten easier. I have said as have others that our worst day was your best day. You deserve everything that heaven has to offer and then some. They are so lucky to…
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I Have to Do This To Get Better
There’s a lot that I feel like I need to get out in terms of writing but everytime I sit down to write about it I instantly lose the motivation/energy to do so. Typically how this blog works is I see or think of something that inspires me and I take that idea further by…
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Grief Is Exhausting
Many many times throughout the time since Jacob ran ahead of us I have often had the same question flood my mind. ”What is happening to me?” Everything I have read thus far has told me that this is grief. You aren’t crazy you are grieving, there is a difference. As someone going through it…
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To My Dearest Friend,
At the time of this post, we are closing in on the one year ”anniversary” of Jakes passing. A lot of emotions have been circulating as this date approaches. As I have said many times over to put it into words as best I can. The pain feels like it just happened yesterday. The missing…
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Little Things and Time Traveling
The holidays and birthdays are hard that one was always going to be blatantly obvious. I think those days are hard particularly when you are around friends and family. There is a spotlight on you and who is missing at that time. The empty chair, the plate untouched, presents never purchased, candles still lit, the…
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No Thanks
I really don’t know where to begin with this post or what direction I want to go in so I will just keep writing and see where it goes. I have gone through a lot of different emotions simultaneously since Jake left us. Most of them seem to flucuate rapidly in a 24 hour period.…
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Im Not Mad At You
It’s been a while since I have posted anything or written anything. I have found lately that I am having trouble putting thoughts to paper. It has been a little over 7 months since Jake left us. Even after 7 months it still doen’t seem real. My brain knows that this is real and he…
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I Know You’re Not Mean But Today It Feels Like It
God I have heard it said that a relationship with you becomes real in one of two ways. The first way is when something tragic happens in your life. The second way is when you do or say something that offends me. I find myself present in both of those places. I watched a movie…
Reflections From The Wreckage 